You and I

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Promise me we’ll meet here in another life. You and I. This place where we first met and fell in love in this life. Promise me. We’ll meet here. You and I. Promise me. Promise me we’ll fall in love with each other again in another life. Promise me. You and I. Because one life is not enough for me to fall in love with you. Because one life is not enough for me to feel your love for me. Because one life is not enough for you and me. For you and I.

Confessions of a Wallflower, page 209

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escapism

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one more hour of a video game.
one more hour of a television series.

 
one more hour of reading a novel.
one more hour of writing a meaningless poem.

 
the world is a very terrible place.
and i procrastinate for we’re all just passing time.

 
my inability to face reality is killing me. 
and i procrastinate for we’re all just passing time.

 
another drag from my cigarette.
another anti-anxiety pill to numb me from my misery.

 
another song. another daydream.
but after the temporary my dark thoughts destroy me.

 
i simply just want to get away from myself. 
but it all ends when i finally stop running away from myself.

 
i am more than just my temporary distractions.
i am more than just a daydreamer sleeping inside a rabbit hole.

I Am Just A Dreamer

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I like to close my eyes sometimes and dream of the future.

 

I wake up one day, and I am mentally healthy. That I have won my battle against my mental illness. That things don’t bother me that much anymore. Like the butterfly effect, passing time, the number eight and thinking that I’m make-believe.

 

I wake up one day, and I just do the things that I do. I write the books that I want to write. I post the blog posts that I want to post. I run regularly under the deep blue sky while the sun shines on me like I am a flower that has survived wilting.

 

I wake up one day, and I’m just happy because I am healed, and I am living like it means something. I wake up one day, and I don’t even think about killing myself because life is full of possibilities that don’t scare me because every path in life is the right path. And if alternate realities exist then so what? That won’t stop me from trying to live this prime existence of mine fully.

 

I like to close my eyes sometimes and dream of the future. I like to open them not without a sense melancholy that I will eventually get better.

Take My Despair, I Want It Not

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Take my despair,
I want it not.

 
For I have learned 
to live one day at a time.

 
For I have learned 
to live without expectations.

 
So take my despair,
I want it not.

 
For I have finally learned
that nothing stays the same 
forever.

 
For I have finally learned 
that nothing is more powerful
than hope.

 
So take my despair,
I want it not.