Addiction is only beautiful at the start. It numbs you from the pain, the insecurity, and the anxiety until you finally feel those things again, and the cycle starts all over again. Then suddenly you can’t stop for the reason that it taught you how to survive. Escaping reality one day at a time and denying pain one moment at a time. It’s not something you really get over from unless you choose to live a brand new life where there are less triggers and more reminders that you are worthy of living a fresh, healthy and meaningful existence.