Sometimes a single step forward is enough for a day. That alone is progress. And any kind of progress is powerful.
I am like a tree that grows upwards and downwards both at once. I am a being that needs both the power of destruction and healing. It’s no surprise that I feel like I’m getting better and getting worse both at the same time. It’s a shitty feeling. To have this desire to kill myself only to realize that it’s only through the process of growing towards the fear, towards the storm up above me that I could surpass the anxiety of being alone, of being afraid that I’m heading nowhere in life. And just like any other tree in this world—I’ll just keep on growing.
Reminder: you’re a human being, and your capabilities are limited in a world filled with unlimited possibilities. Learn to take one step back every time you take two steps forward. Learn to know when your body needs to rest and relax to be more efficient for the tomorrows to come. Learn to unlearn the philosophy that over exhausting yourself is the only way to success. Learn the difference between commitment and self-endangerment and also the difference between shining and burning. Because lots of people these days are being taught to work on fumes that they forget about things like self-care and balance. And lots of people are sleeping less and drinking coffee more. And lots of people are burning out before having the chance to truly shine. So learn to drink more water, drink less coffee. Learn to sleep more and exercise more and have balance and self-care in life more because this is how you truly grow, this is how you truly shine.
Healing is when you become something else, something better, and not something you were before.