Never apologize for not being the same person other’s loved before the trauma. You are allowed to recreate yourself. You are allowed to reinvent your character, your sense of style and your hobbies. You are allowed to redefine your goals, your values and your vision of what makes a fulfilling life. That’s how you transform from being a victim towards becoming the survivor of your dreams.
I once fell in love with a girl
who fell in love with trees
she adored seeing the hills, the stock,
and the cottages from afar always like
the first time I saw her.
She was wearing a floral dress
one Saturday afternoon
and she was there way up her favorite tree
the mango tree that matches the way she covers
her mouth when she laughs just like the sound of birds.
I asked her right there and then
“Why are you so in love with trees?”
“Can you teach me how to love them too?”
She offered me her hand as I climbed
my way nearer and nearer to the top
and her hand was as soft as a robin’s feather
I tried not to blush because my cheeks might get tender.
“Look at the everythingness of everything!”
She uttered in such a way that was both childlike and romantic
to my heart
and there we were sitting together
at that branch where we talked about the wonder of trees,
fresh air, and nature where we promised to love each other
like that September sunset carving
our names to the bark of that mango tree where we cherished.
I love people who are aware of how sad, beautiful, and chaotic existence is and with that knowledge chooses to live a life of non-conformity. I love people who are rebels, who seeks the truth instead of the endless pursuit of survival when it comes to trying to fit it. I love people who are dreamers, lovers, and wanderers for their sense of a destination comes from following their hearts despite what sufferings their passions and desires may bring. I love people who are out of this world but still chooses to stay grounded to reality in some hope that one day it will be so much better than what they always wish for in those peaceful moments of staring at the stars.