I hope she’ll be forgiving not because I want to hurt her. I’d never hurt the person I love intentionally, ever. I’m a good guy who buys chocolates and flowers and wants to take her to the movies, be in a cooking class together and watch the sunset until the day is over. I’m not the life of the party, and I’m pretty much a beta male. I hope she forgives me in times when I’m dull because I really don’t have a life besides writing greeting card poetry, binge-watching all of my favorite TV shows and meeting my shrink once or twice or thrice a week depending on how much crazy I’m feeling. All I can promise is that I’ll let her eat the last piece of pizza and cherish her so much on nights when she’s feeling extra tired and empty. I’ll try to make her smile or giggle even just for a little bit as I do the sexy evening kitchen dance while an Ed Sheeran song is playing on the radio. I hope she forgives me when I someday tell her “I love you” and what I really mean by that is “I’m broken, and I’m very much clueless when it comes to love but here’s my heart and I promise you that it will beat for you till’ the last of my tomorrows and hopefully you can do the same for me.”
Finding myself doesn’t always mean that I’ve lost myself. Self-discovery is when I remind myself of the simple things that bring purpose into my life and practicing gratitude at the end of the day. Like how the sun rises every morning and sets every evening, self-discovery for me is a daily thing.
It’s easy to know who I am when I am at peace with my sadness.
you have depression
how does your depression
she carefully asked.
‘it’s like waking up every morning
to a breaking heart,’ I carefully replied.
‘and it feels like the entire day
is already over when in fact the entire day
has only just begun.’
my humans are smiling
as they unwrap their gifts
and say the words
“i love you”
and lastly the words
we’re all under the same
but the flowers in me are happy
My religion is seeing the glass half empty and offering the water inside of it to those who are in need of understanding. I am a pessimist of kindness. Life goes terribly wrong indeed, but that doesn’t mean we can’t help a fellow human being find their way towards the light while possessing a little bit of sadness in our souls.