Tired of Living


And I am starting to learn that when someone says ‘I want to die’ it doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re holding a gun to their head, ready to jump from a forty story building or swallow the pills they’re hiding under the bed. ‘I want to die’ could be the same as ‘Look at me. I’m in so much pain. I’m failing my classes on purpose. It has been five days since I last took a shower and my breath smells like too much alcohol.’ ‘I want to die’ could be the very definition of ‘I don’t care about anything anymore, and I need someone to help me’ and of course you’d have to help them because they are tired of life or at the very least—send them to someone you know they can trust.

6 thoughts on “Tired of Living

  1. I can understand what you’re saying in this post completely because when I say, ‘I want to die,’ I’m really just crying out for help. It doesn’t necessarily mean that I actually want to die, but just that I’m alone and I need someone to talk to. It’s really unfortunate but there aren’t many people that I’ve been able to turn to in real life except a couple of friends, and frankly, not as often as I probably need to. I’ve found a lot of support in the blogging community though, and that’s exactly why I love it so much. I feel like if people were just ready to smile and show people that they’re willing to be there for them, a lot of people wouldn’t feel so alone, but I feel like I’m not being entirely realistic when I say that. I hope it gets better though.

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  2. I can definitely relate to this. I’ve noticed that some of the people who feel like this are ironically people who love and feel life the most. It’s really really tough and I emphathize with anyone going through this. Thank you for sharing and expressing your thoughts.

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