I believe in the saying “Keep moving forward,” I believe in it despite having clinical depression that makes it hard to imagine a bright future and purely-obsessional ocd, which makes it a struggle to think positively with a mind that’s filled doubts and unwanted irrational thoughts.
Sometimes childhood trauma and bullying come in the way of “keeping the faith” because it’s me experiencing the past in the present moment, and it gets really lonely there. Especially when I’d like to be in a place where I’d be able to experience the future in the present moment because that’s where depression does not exist. Because depression is the thing that hinders a person from seeing that the future is going to be okay.
So I’m writing this self-reflection as a way to fight.
I know most of the time all I write are quotes and some silly short poems about mental health, self-love or any inspirational stuff that I feel like people would relate to and would get good likes/notes especially on Tumblr and I accept that a part of me likes being celebrated for writing pretty words but I’d like to share this part of me that embraces uncertainty when it comes to composing something with length with the risk of feeling like a fool because I am so afraid.
I am afraid that I wouldn’t make any sense, and my pure-ocd wouldn’t like it, and it will be painful to walk with my doubt. I am afraid that I’m not a real writer anymore because I don’t want to write about what’s ugly. But most of all, I’m afraid that as I keep moving forward towards the unknown, I don’t know when to rest and heal. I don’t know what part of me is broken, and maybe as I keep moving forward I’ll just be hurting myself. I don’t know anything much at all, and I’m afraid, and maybe I should be afraid or maybe being afraid is the thing I have to take to keep moving forward and realize that there was nothing to fear when I look back at how far I’ve gone.
I don’t know where my next leap of faith will take me, but I hope someday every step I take towards the unknown will inspire me with hope and love that it will be okay. An unknown writer once said that “If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.” Just keep moving forward. 💙
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Exceedingly astute.
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Thank you. 🙂
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So love this ❤️ I completely agree with the simplicity; a lot of my poems are built on random words and phrases that have sprung to my mind!
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Thank you so much. ❤️❤️❤️
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I’ll often find that as I’m editing a first draft I come across really very large numbers of really’s and very’s lol
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Hahaha. :))
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This is excellent advice. I find the biggest bar to writing is the desire to write brilliantly. Quality comes with that unconscious, lucky first draft or through re-writing and editing. People forget that writing is simply hard work.
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Many folks can write brilliantly, but, typical artists, it’s never quite good enough for them. I find people should sometimes “just write”. Sure, some combing and editing may be advisable afterwards, but sometimes you just write brilliant things.
Just because you don’t know you’re writing brilliantly doesn’t make it so.
In photography, we shoot 500 frames for every keeper shot.
Writing is not greatly dissimilar.
Write a lot, edit a lot, keep a little.
Paz
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I agree with all of this. Good writing is the art of spotting something that you have written well.
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I love this. Especially that last one–needed to hear that today. 📝
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Thank you. Best of luck to your writing. ❤
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What a great and inspiring post! Thank you!
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Thank you so much. 🙂 Best of luck to your writing. ❤
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Thank you so much!
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You’re welcome. 🙂
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Great tip! Don’t say you’re a writer… be one!!
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“You’re not an aspiring writer. You are a writer.” Thanks for that. I have trouble calling myself a writer, even though I write every day. In my own mind I am. It’s an important part of my identity. But when people ask me what I do, I never say I’m a writer. I can’t bear the questions that inevitably follow.
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You’re welcome. ❤ Have a beautiful day. 🙂
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It’s people like you who motivate me whenever I feel like giving up on writing , Thank you
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You’re welcome. ❤ Thank you for reading. 🙂
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Cheers and keep the spirit up always
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Love this! Great post 🙂
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Thank you! 🙂
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This is all so true. It’s so easy to be too hard on ourselves before we even get to write down that first sentence, despite the fact that we’re never going to improve if we don’t let ourselves start. It’s a catch 22 that you’ve captured brilliantly! 🙂
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Thank you so much. ❤
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Thanks for the good tips on writing. Since I am an aspiring writer, it will help me to improve my writing
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Sure thing. ❤
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10 simple but effective tips. Thank you
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You’re welcome. 🙂 Thanks for reading. ❤
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Great advice!! 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂 ❤
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“Bird by bird” an advice I use not only for writing but every part of life! Baby steps, baby steps, and sometimes a baby tumble 🙂
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That’s so nice. Haha. I use baby steps a lot too. ❤ Thank you for reading. 🙂
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Love this! Meshes with how I always try to write and it’s a great reminder. Thanks for posting!
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You’re welcome! Thanks for reading. ❤
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Writers are always afraid to call themselves writers, I guess right up until the moment they put a Pulitzer in your hands. It seems there must be a degree required, or ongoing monetary success through publishing. Maybe there’s a special “Writer’s License” or some other PROOF.
I’m a wordsmith, a writer. I’m also a painter. Are my paintings selling for millions (or at all) or hanging in museums and homes of the wealthy? No. But I am still a painter.
My friend Lester is a painter, and makes money at it. He’s a house painter. Still, a painter.
If I know how to water-ski, don’t I say “I’m a water-skier.”?
Do I need to make money at it to justify it?
Well, I’m also a fisherman, so I gotta go now…
Paz
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Hahaha. Good points. ❤
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Great tips!
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Thanks! 🙂
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Great tips on writing! I write short descriptions of places I’ve been – maybe you could check my blog out… 🙂
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Thank you so much. ❤
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