Listen: I am okay with being sad. It’s my standard emotion that actually helps me find genuine happiness. What I am not okay with is being anxious all the time. I dread it. The feeling that everything in my life feels so wrong. Like nothing ever goes perfect or right. Like I don’t know what it is that I should do to feel at peace with myself again. And I become so overwhelmed by my mistakes and imperfections that I become frozen into the place where my anxiety drags me: hopelessness. And I think that hopelessness is the most self-destructive emotion because it drags me down into a much more oblivious and dreadful place filled with repeating self-loathing thoughts and tears where I can only think of one thing: suicide. And that’s why I think that human love and connection is so important for people like me who suffers from mental illness because love, belongingness, and understanding—these are the things that make us endure when our desire to live has finally come to an end.
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I couldn’t agree more. Anxiety is the thief of peace of mind and it’s truly the love and connectedness with others that keeps one going. Blessed be.
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🙏🏻 so relatable and true!! I suffer from more anxious days lately and you’re right – those days when you feel that connection with someone, it truly helps. Love your blog!
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Yes, yes, yeeeeeees! Hopelessness is such a part of anxiety, and it is so hard to combat! The way it leads to suicidal ideation and the importance of supporting connections- very true! Well written! Thank you for this.
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I hope it helps you to write. You’re a beautiful writer.
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Always remember you are loved. Mental illness torments me so I understand. Try to remember that the darkness is always greater right before the dawn. That helps me get through the times of despair. I hope it helps you.
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The worst is when you’re feeling anxiety without any reason – lovely post
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Juansen, I agree about the importance of “love” and “belonging.” They’re the essential vitamins for a healthy life.
Blessings ~ Wendy
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Interesting thoughts, half of it i understand and relate, the other half not so much, maybe different circumstances, but love the article
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Thank you. 🙂
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Beautifully said! You have a wonderful rhythm to your truth telling! A true writer!
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Thank you so much!
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Thank you Juanse for an inspiring post. Yes, “belonging” is such an overlooked aspect of our mind health. Thank you for your work!
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I totally agree with you, Juansen. Those three elements – love, belongingness and understanding – are very essential for any person to endure all the trials and hardships in life. When faith starts to falter but all these three are present, they booster up our failing faith and confidence in ourselves. Good writing!
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I can relate to hopelessness. And since my mom, her mom, and my father’s sister killed themselves, I think suicide runs in my veins. I have woken up with that I-give-up spirit many times. Keep writing. Sometimes it’s the only thing that helps.
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Yeah. Suicide sometimes feels like the only thing that makes sense.
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts here on WordPress. Can relate to this at so many different levels. Thank you. 🙂
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You’re welcome. Thank you so much for reading. 🙂
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