This won’t be poetic or anything.
I am really tired. I have been feeling a lot more anxious and depressed lately. I have been trying to hold everything all together. My creativity, my blogs, and my other social media accounts. Most especially my mental health which is going not so well lately. I have been having compulsions and obsessions lately, and that is because of my obsessive compulsive disorder in the past and is now beginning to come back strongly, and I strongly believe that it is because of the anxiety that I have been feeling each day lately.
And as some of you may know I am working on my first poetry collection that I am set to self-publish early next year. And it’s really doing well…. I think.
It has 100+ poems/proses that I have never published in any of my blogs and social media accounts. And I just have this strong feeling that I can do much better and I still have less than two months to really really work on my first poetry collection.
And I think that one of the ways to maximize my creativity in order to produce high-quality works is to drop some load in managing and using social media like facebook, twitter, this wordpress blog, and instagram (for awhile). And just focus on my Tumblr blog mostly because I am really doing well there in terms of trend and site traffic statistics.
So yeah. I would just be posting some personal stuff here occasionally. Same with Twitter. And as for Facebook, I’d just update it once a month with a boosted post. And as for instagram, I’d be back on it once I get my mental health altogether.
What really really matters now is the quality of my first poetry collection that I am currently working on.
I am being pressured to go back to college again by my dad mid-next year. And he only has little to no idea on how chaotic my mind is for the traditional education system. And what I want and need is to follow my dream to become a successful author. And that’s what I will do. And that’s what I will become.
At least my mom somehow understands my situation…. I think.
Anyways, I have so many things in my mind, and I don’t think I’ve tackled everything so I might post more personal stuff very soon.
I’ve left this blog post untagged and uncategorized, so only my loyal readers may read it. Thank you for the support. I am really really grateful to all of you. 🙂
You may continue to read more of my poems, quotes, and proses on my Tumblr Blog: http://juansendizon.tumblr.com/ 🙂
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Be well everyone. 🙂